Just like that, from a thousand miles an hour to asleep in a nano second. I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch and just sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Just sleep, in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I went back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane.